This is what I want
soft clothes to replace the dirt at 6 p.m.
flowers to ingest even though you shouldn’t
the perfect degree to enjoy standing on grass
This is what I want
pasta with a side of potatoes on top of rice
inside of a bread bowl
white sauce not on the side
This is what I want
a dog that is loud because his voice works and does it well
a dog that doesn’t differentiate bad from evil
a cat that doesn’t care when you’ve been gone for two weeks
This is what I want
a girl to not return my gaze
a boy to not understand what it means to be a boy
a man who does
a woman who is very loud
because good for her
This is what I want
In the short amount of time between going underground for the train
and rising above ground for after the train
The sun has set to pink purple
The sky in surprise colors
You feel like a cool person with arms that seem foreign to you
and safe for you
and strong for you
and how honest of you
if you’re being honest
and Ben doesn’t mind that it’s been four awful months since you last emailed him
probably
and a ladybug that’s stuck inside with you is also just trying to fall in love
probably
and the G train that hasn’t arrived — well, don’t worry, it’s coming
This is what we want
I put my hat on in the morning
I leave a hat behind for you
This is what I want when I am not alone
okay
It’s what I want when I am alone
probably
This is what I want
Fly into me like a strong and bad smelling wind in the morning
Fly into me like a bug that wants to flatten itself to death against the ceiling
Fly into me without an intention or even the physical possibility of leaving
We can live in a moderately temperatured area for one or two years
then we can switch to a slightly worse one after that
Sometimes your body tells another part of your body to lie to you
Sometimes we don’t listen
Michael says he wants to see us again
okay
Meggie says come back
I reply come back home
This is what I want
Sarah Jean Alexander
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